I was listening to Margo Tantau's Windowsill Chats Podcast today, and absolutely devouring her chat with Beth Nydick. I've been binging, really. It's so, so, so good--if you haven't had a listen I so highly recommend it!
Anyhow, tomorrow I start up with work again, and I can't help but feel as if I'm at a crossroads. Nothing will change tomorrow--I will still go to my day job--but something has changed (me) and now I will go to my day job taking with me my arty hopes and dreams.
I have no goals as of yet, not mastermind plans or even inklings of where I hope to end up with all of this. I'm just starting again, and I'm okay with where I am, for once.
One BIG question that Beth asks in this podcast is "What is it that I need to world to know about what I think about life?" And so what is it? I think what I need the world to know is what I need to know myself: that it is possible to live a life you love. It is possible to take your art and your writing and share it with the world. The world needs what you have to give. What burns in my chest at night is this--if you hear a creative calling, have the courage to listen to it and follow it to see where it leads. I'm for creatives everywhere, I want to encourage those with creative callings to answer those callings in a way that brings and abundant life for that creative, and I want it to start with me.
In the past I've felt as if I've had to choose between answering my creative call and making a living. I still don't know how to do both at the same time, and maybe I won't ever know how. Or maybe I'll figure it out. In anycase, I don't want to choose anymore. I want both. A life that fulfills my creative calling and one that also heartily supports my family financially. There I said it. I'm on my way.