Last Day (before I turn in my keys)!
I'm counting today as my last day of the school year--I come back next week to turn in my keys and then it's a wrap! Woot! Woot!
I'd be lying if I said I wasn't filled to the brim with anxiety about next school year. The thought of a brand new *upper* grade level keeps me up at night. But I am also trusting that all will be well when the year starts. For now, I just need a long break to rest and recalibrate. I'm hopeful that after being away for a while, I'll fill up again and be able to bring my whole self to the table.
If I had to tell you one reason why this year was so hard, it was this: being told that I wasn't enough, all year long. The message came in subtle and not so subtle ways. Someone didn't have my back this year and while it didn't break me, it did hurt and I have had to learn to shake it off and look to the people who do love and support me. Teaching is hard enough as it is without constant criticism and the unkindness of others, but the year is what it is. It was full of good things too, truth be told, so that is what I'm choosing to focus on today. I've made wonderful friends I wouldn't have met any other way! I have the satisfaction of taking a risk even though things didn't work out as I had hoped--but I know I tried and I have no regrets.
In 5 days I leave for Japan! Yay! My happy place! And I'll inundate you here with photos and updates while I'm there. Yay! Here's to endings and to rest, and to vacations and friendships and here's to life with all of it's ups and downs. I'll see you on the flip side!