I'll be turning 53 this year (gasp!), but I still feel like just a girl. I wonder if I'll ever feel like the adult I'm supposed to be? I'm guessing that if it hasn't hit me by now, it never will, haha, and I think that may be a good thing!
This is a quick sketch I did using my new iPad and Procreate. I'm still learning as you can see :). I drew it last night during the time I am usually either doing some light housework or watching movies. My priorities have shifted as of late and I'm using most of my down time to write, collage and draw. It's been refreshing and life giving to say the least.
One thing that I'd like to share today is this: as long as you're still alive, it is never too little too late to start over. The trolls were telling me all kinds of nasty things about rejoining a community of artists--that I wasn't really an artist or at least not the right kind, that I was too old to begin again, that it was too late, that I had nothing to offer and on and on. For a long time I believed these messages and it kept me from creative recovery. But slowly, by listening to other voices, voices of encouragement and hope, I was able to drown out those damn trolls and start taking steps forward towards my creativity. It's been a good month of taking baby steps forward, of letting myself dream new dreams, of reconnecting with a creative community, which has been the hardest part, filled with lots of messages of shame as in--what will people think of you, you're washed up, no one will remember you, etc. Damn trolls.
Anyhoo, if you have them living in your head too, off with them! I'm here to be one of those encouraging voices to tell you that the world needs your creativity, your words, your aliveness and yes, you. I'm here to tell you that it is NOT too little too late, but just right at just the right time for you to give yourself to us. I'm here to say that you don't have to be a Picasso or anyone else--you can just be you, and it is you that someone in the world needs to hear and see. So just show up. Just as you are, ready or not. Because the only way through to the other side where your dreams await, is forward and baby steps are the way to go! Celebrate each little step forward--I'm rooting for you!!! Hugs. <3