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  • Writer's pictureJan Avellana

17,807 days

17,807 days

how many times is too many times to begin again? who is the accountant keeping track of my failures? is there really a tally of shame, like a prisoner's calendar on a brick wall somewhere?

get over yourself. no.

so then, you can begin again however many times you want,

how. ever. many. times. it. takes,

did you hear me?

a thousand times a day if you must.

so will you?

as of today i have been breathing for 17,807 days and i have been alive for a scant part of those days, and i want more—

more life in my days, more depth, more time, more goodness, starting with this mulligan,

and then— ten thousand more.


-j. a. hongo

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