• Jan Avellana

17,807 days

Updated: Apr 5, 2019

how many times

is too many times

to begin again?

who is

the accountant

keeping

track of my

failures?

is there really a

tally of shame,

like a prisoner's

calendar

on a

brick wall

somewhere?

get over yourself.

no.

so then,

you can

begin again

however

many times

you want,

how. ever. many. times. it. takes,

did you hear me?

a thousand times a day

if you must.

so will you?

as of

today

i have been

breathing

for

17,807 days

and i have

been alive

for a scant part

of those days,

and i want more—

more

life

in my days,

more

depth,

more

time,

more

goodness,

starting

with

this mulligan,

and then—

ten thousand

more.

~ j. avellana

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